bells

wedding bells that is ...
they seem to be (furiously) ringing...
but not for me...zannen desu ne.

i am happy for those who have found love
and who are making their commitment official
in the eyes of both men and God.

i am happy for those who have cast their fate
to the winds, believing that long engagements
is not the sure fire way to make marriages last.

what does not sit well with me
is having to answer that nagging question again.

as a speaker once directed to me...
"your 3* y.o and you don't have a problem with that?"

ouch!

first days

why is it that my 1st days with a new company
seem to be punctuated with lots of chitchat?
why is it that my 1st days with a new company
seem to be very slow moving?

but i am not complaining :)
as always, it was a decision done with a lot of thought.

besides, pretty soon, days will be hectic.
if history is to repeat itself :)

like a tiger, i should patiently wait
for fulfillment of this innate desire to do well.

saying goodbyes

an old and true friend jabbered me to ask if i cried during my farewell speech.

she knows me well enough thus the question.

i cry buckets easily so it was really a pretty good effort on my part not to be bawling when i said my (impromptu) farewell speech yesterday.

there is a tinge of sadness of leaving a company i have been passionate about for more than a decade. it was heartbreaking to say thank you and goodbye to truly exceptional people who had to trusted me to steer our projects to success. it was heartbreaking to look at the faces of true friends who have made seemingly impossible work conditions bearable. i felt a sense of loss to realize that there are interesting people i would probably not be able to work with anymore.

but i did manage to keep my tears at bay. wanting to leave with a smile :)

however, i only said goodbye as a "warrior of the light" of nsp. i only said goodbye as a pm, pl, bridge se, design engr, nihongo training coordinator and a host of other tasks i assumed before.

maybe that is what made it easier for me.

graduation day presents :)

from the friendships!

from my project group :)

with the book and specially made scrapbook for me :)

God is good :)